Where to start?

i thought i can do my best

all i have is just myself

all this time it's always been me

the one who had to control myself

i don't know what's the best for me

i don't know what i really want to be

they keeps expects me to catch my dreams

but i had is nothing

i know i'm gonna be something one day

but for now

i have nothing

they say i don't really mature

they don't respect me as much

because i haven't gave what they want me to

i dont have that much support at that time

and it's the same after i finished my study

whatever man

i'm already lost in my own

i do want them to be happy

but i don't even know where to start

i'm hopeless and lonely

i don't know where the fuck my positive side

the one that used to be ambitious about everything

i don't think if i need more time

but i know i do really want to see myself grow better

so i can be happy by myself

and shut the hell of them who underestimate me